This week I'm being guided to take an automatic writing approach to the lesson. What follows is a transmission from wisdom beyond, specifically dealing with the providence of our creations. If there is something that you're striving for, ask yourself why you're striving for it. Whether or not you get what you desire is just one piece of the puzzle, for sometimes it's in the getting of what we want that the hardest lessons are found and (perhaps) learned.
Your intention for that which you desire is key to what may manifest in this reality (and if desire = implied lack, then therein again is further opportunity for growth).
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"How can you, who goes forth with so-called purpose and appearances, do so without shame or fear or regret, so that you in the doing, are able to construct a most wondrous reality beyond even that of your wildest imagination?
For how can one do this without sin or breach of their own humanity, to build a world of your own choosing when therein is implied a building of something for self (which may be construed as inherently selfish)?
I say unto you:
For that which is built of love, and if that building is reflective of one's inner world, then all you are doing is making manifest the glory which already resides in the temple, in the Holy of Holies, your physical self. To bring forth that which is already perfect and true, is to reside at the right hand of God. Therefore it is not selfish, so long as the world you build is righteous.
Ask yourself the following questions in pursuit of this, your ideal world:
1. Do I do this out of love of self/others, or do I do this because I am seeking love (and thus, am motivated by ego)?
2. Am I a stranger to mine own heart, and thus closed off from Source, the wellspring of love, or am I acting out of knowledge of Self and thus knowledge of mine own purpose?
3. Do I bring a childlike enthusiasm to the doing/creating, rooted in love/joy and thus abundant in love/joy, or do I bring eagerness, cynicism, fear, and scarcity to the doing such that the doing is really a reflection of a personal kind of hell?
In all things in heaven and earth, of creation and within and without, there must be one motivation - such that it isn't a motivation at all but that through which you move effortlessly - and that is love.
If you are a fish, love is the water in which you swim. As a human being, it is the air you breathe. For the plants, it is the sun and soil which nourishes and provides space to grow. Love is that which binds you through eternity to Source, to God, however you might call that which created heaven and earth and everything, everywhere, throughout all time and space and outside of that realm unto infinity. But even this limits both God and love, for truly there is no adequate language with which to express the meaning of either. Not that in your limited human experience you could ever truly know the One or the Many, though you may if you put aside your human consciousness and enter into your timeless nature through the sacred entry point of your heart.
And so as you venture into the world, as you create your personal universe, ask yourself if that which lives inside of you is a heaven or a hellscape, for that is what will manifest on the outside. If love be that which dwells within, then love be that which dwells without."
As it happens often, a 'voice' will awaken me at some point during the night with a message on repeat. If I think I'm being lectured, it puts me in a mood (because I am human after all), and I'll try to reframe it in a way that I think is not scolding or sanctimonious, untll such time as I let go of any fears I have around the message and really digest it at the level of intuition and inner wisdom (which is everyone's entry point to higher consciousness).
"Heed your actions" was last night's hit single, and it had me turning over in bed wondering what or if I'd done anything to deserve (what felt like) such a chastisement. It was only while outside with my toddler (light of my life) and dog (who was in that moment reminding me to observe my annoyance with him rather than succumb to it), that the true meaning of the words pushed through to the surface. I took a deep breath and allowed it in.
What does it mean to heed our actions?
When we 'heed' something, we are noticing it. And if actions include non-actions, then this message is really asking us to notice our actions. Noticing something for the first time is the entry point to understanding, and if it's yourself that you're noticing (even just a different aspect for the first time), then this is another rung on the ladder of understanding yourself at the human consciousness level. This, in turn, will help you deepen your awakening experience, which is in itself a series of 'noticings' until you've seen what you need to see (this may happen alongside or at different times from the gradual widening of the veil separating your human consciousness from higher consciousness). Remember that at all times it is your higher consciousness dictating the progression of your awakening, because it's your higher consciousness that's learning how to awaken 'itself.' The more times it awakens the human being at the human consciousness level over countless incarnations, the more evolved your higher consciousness gets until one day/incarnation, the human being that is born is already awake (the hole is so big that there really is no veil anymore).
The subconscious mind and the Witness
In between our human and higher consciouness exists our subconscious. Think of it like a buffer zone between the two, a data link that tries to make the connection between something like Wikipedia and your computer, where Wikipedia is your higher consciousness with its unlimited wisdom, and your computer is, obviously, you. When there is no hole in the veil (or if it is still very small), this data link is the only way for your higher consciousness to communicate with you. If it didn't exist, how would your higher consciousness ever learn to wake 'you' up? What happens in the data link though, and which is endlessly frustrating for our human consciousness, is distortion. Our subconscious is still of the realm of our human consciousness, which is of the body. And what do our bodies hold on to? Trauma. Memories. Thoughts and fears. Emotions. We are very volatile creations. Therefore, every message that comes forth from the higher consciousness to the human consciousness is distorted via the subconscious filter/data link. This is why dream analysis is such a fascinating topic of exploration at both the mystical and psychological levels.
But our subconscious is not just a data link (for us). It is also our autopilot.
Our autopilot is exactly that, the actions or inactions that we take/don't take unconsciously. Sometimes these autopilot things are good (breathing, blinking, positive behaviours cultivated over time). Sometimes, they are not-so-good (destructive habits and negative behaviours cultivated over time). Our autopilots are not pre-programmed; they are 'built' into our operating system over time. The trouble occurs when we do something negative over and over again such that it is elevated to a subconscious behaviour (sometimes without our realizing it). And because our subconscious mind holds on to the traumas and fears and emotions of our bodies (if we consciously held onto these things all of the time we would not be able to function) as well as holds sway over the unconscious actions driven by those things, this makes conscious recognition of that which you do unconsciously/subconsciously very challenging. It is also important to note that
But not impossible.
The critical first step in breaking out of autopilot is to engage the Witness (keep in mind that there are big, unconscious behaviours that you may already be aware of and doing consciously and 'want' to stop doing but continue despite your best intentions, however, that is an exploration for another day; today we are looking only at trying to find those unconscious actions that you haven't yet noticed).
Think of the Witness as 'your' own personal audience for the reality show that is your life. Your audience is going to see things that you cannot see, being that you are simply too close to the action. From the time you wake up, to the time you lay your head down on your pillow, and moment-to-moment, ask yourself the following question: "why am I doing what I'm doing right now?" This will be very annoying for you, because once you start, it will likely be hard to stop, but it's the same with growth. It's painful and not fun, because in order for us to change there must be a death, a destruction of what used to be in order to make space for what will be.
"Why am I doing what I'm doing right now?"
Let's say you wake up and instantly reach for your phone. Why do you do that? What is it doing for you, what hole is it filling in that moment? Maybe instead of reaching for your phone you place your hands over your heart while still lying in bed and you close your eyes and breathe deeply. This small contemplation may provide a foundation for stillness that you can take with you as you progress your day. All just because you stopped to witness yourself, ask yourself 'why' and then doing something differently.
This is just one teeny, tiny example of what engaging the Witness can do for you. And if you think about how many tiny actions you take in a day, most of which are unconscious but unnoticed, how much potential do you think there is to expand your awakening if our awakening is really just a series of noticings?
Limitless.
Because each time you disrupt an autopilot action there is a break in the system. Do this enough times and you will completely override the subconcious and lessen the distortion between your humand and higher consciousness. In this way you will deepen your awakening experience but also dramatically change the life you are currently living. That is true alchemy.
And so, as you begin the week, remember to heed your actions and, of course, be well on your journey.
