It has been a couple weeks since my last post, but there have been a lot of downloads in that time which have really taken a toll on me physically. As a mother to a toddler I am already just, as part of my status quo, exhausted, but then add energy boosts and upgrades and downloads and activations to the mix and, well, the result is today's three-hour nap and overall zombie-like energy.
Quick side bar: you would think that when recieving these downloads that your energy would increase and you'd feel all magical and powerful, but I've found that it's not the case. At least for me. Our human consciousness lags behind our higher consciousness by design and also due to the limitations of this reality, and so it's like putting in a new operating system in an old machine. Fortunately for human beings, we are not machines, and our human bodies/consciousness eventually catches up - but there is still a lag. As we get older that lag can feel longer and longer, and harder and harder. But the wisdom you gain as a result is worth the trouble, so I'm accepting of this sacred exchange even if I do look and feel haggard!
One of the most important takeaways from the downloads over the last couple weeks has been that of Awakened Leadership; in fact, it has sort of completely changed the trajectory of my mission. Perhaps it's more accurate to say that my understanding of my mission has changed completely, because I am slowly putting the pieces of this puzzle together as things are revealed to me when I'm ready to have them be revealed to me (as is meant). In this way it probably looks like I am stumbling around a bit in the dark, though unafraid because I know that whatever I do is right, because I'm doing it. Leaning in to your faith in Source and yourself through Source as Source's perfect creation can only lead you to exactly where you're meant to be, and what better way to go through life than that?
And as I lean into Awakened Leadership and learn what it is even as I begin writing about it (channeling higher consciousness in the doing), I continue to be struck by the notion of faith and what it actually does and means for us as human beings. Because the foundation of everything is one thing: self love. Without it, the house we try to build will sink into the earth; with it, the frame and walls and rooms we build to live and grow into will stand forever.
Why self love? Because love itself is the glue that binds the universe, and also that which powers creation. It is one of the four pillars of Source, which also includes creation itself. Love therefore is neither an emotion or does it represent acceptance, it is far grander than that. Love is how existence exists in the first place. Love is ubiquitous and ethereal both what connects us to Source and also Source itself. It even encompasses the other three pillars. It is everything. When you love yourself, therefore, you are honouring Source who created you, who loves you beyond all human imagining. Human beings cannot conceive of how greatly they are loved, and so this is where faith needs to come in.
People claim to have faith in God but when it comes to themselves, they are bereft. True faith is rooted in self love - which is neither egoic or narcissistic but altruistic; self love is the recognition that you are both the one and the many, that to treat another as you would be treated is to treat yourself. Self love is seeing yourself in others and others in yourself. It is forgiving yourself and forgiving others. Self love in and of itself is an act of faith in Source - that which cannot be named - because you are living in complete and total alignment in what was intended. Self love is the recognition of God's power through you because you are of God.
People place faith in so many things these days, and so often the wrong things (though nothing is really wrong, because where a person is on the journey is exactly where they're supposed to be). The truth is that the further away from God we seem to stray is exactly the distance we were supposed to go in order to find our way back. Have faith that all is meant.
This week I'm being guided to take an automatic writing approach to the lesson. What follows is a transmission from wisdom beyond, specifically dealing with the providence of our creations. If there is something that you're striving for, ask yourself why you're striving for it. Whether or not you get what you desire is just one piece of the puzzle, for sometimes it's in the getting of what we want that the hardest lessons are found and (perhaps) learned.
Your intention for that which you desire is key to what may manifest in this reality (and if desire = implied lack, then therein again is further opportunity for growth).
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"How can you, who goes forth with so-called purpose and appearances, do so without shame or fear or regret, so that you in the doing, are able to construct a most wondrous reality beyond even that of your wildest imagination?
For how can one do this without sin or breach of their own humanity, to build a world of your own choosing when therein is implied a building of something for self (which may be construed as inherently selfish)?
I say unto you:
For that which is built of love, and if that building is reflective of one's inner world, then all you are doing is making manifest the glory which already resides in the temple, in the Holy of Holies, your physical self. To bring forth that which is already perfect and true, is to reside at the right hand of God. Therefore it is not selfish, so long as the world you build is righteous.
Ask yourself the following questions in pursuit of this, your ideal world:
1. Do I do this out of love of self/others, or do I do this because I am seeking love (and thus, am motivated by ego)?
2. Am I a stranger to mine own heart, and thus closed off from Source, the wellspring of love, or am I acting out of knowledge of Self and thus knowledge of mine own purpose?
3. Do I bring a childlike enthusiasm to the doing/creating, rooted in love/joy and thus abundant in love/joy, or do I bring eagerness, cynicism, fear, and scarcity to the doing such that the doing is really a reflection of a personal kind of hell?
In all things in heaven and earth, of creation and within and without, there must be one motivation - such that it isn't a motivation at all but that through which you move effortlessly - and that is love.
If you are a fish, love is the water in which you swim. As a human being, it is the air you breathe. For the plants, it is the sun and soil which nourishes and provides space to grow. Love is that which binds you through eternity to Source, to God, however you might call that which created heaven and earth and everything, everywhere, throughout all time and space and outside of that realm unto infinity. But even this limits both God and love, for truly there is no adequate language with which to express the meaning of either. Not that in your limited human experience you could ever truly know the One or the Many, though you may if you put aside your human consciousness and enter into your timeless nature through the sacred entry point of your heart.
And so as you venture into the world, as you create your personal universe, ask yourself if that which lives inside of you is a heaven or a hellscape, for that is what will manifest on the outside. If love be that which dwells within, then love be that which dwells without."
