I will prime you by saying that the nature of this post may be extremely uncomfortable to read, witness, sit through. You might have feelings of anger or sadness, or perhaps no feelings at all. This post may bring things to the surface, it might not; and on the flip side, it might do what it has done to me, which is provide a footing with which to steady myself along the journey of this life, but also the journey of every life I’ve lived and experienced as a facet of Source itself, as you are. As we all are. The nature of this post is a bit more esoteric than much of the material I’ve shared up until now, which has demonstrated to me the nature of this work that I am called to is such that it evolves, as I evolve, and there are infinite layers to it. (PS - this post is also available as a podcast episode...You Get What You Give episode 8...available wherever you get your podcasts).
What does today’s transmission have to do with transformation, which is also, truly the work that I am called to do? Everything. And nothing. There is a relationship at work in the universe, that which is most fundamental and yet outside and within the pillars of Source – outside and inside love, creation, joy, and abundance – there is the relationship between the light, and the dark. One cannot exist without the other, and both are made more powerful by each other’s existence. The harmony between these two opposites is innate in our universe, baked-in. It’s just that we in this third density experience the light and dark as feelings or circumstance, and we each play a role in bringing darkness and light to the world in the extremes. This is because human beings are prone to polarization, not balance, because of the physicality of our existence in this realm. In the physical, there is good or bad, positive or negative, happy or sad. Because of our experience of polarities, we are largely unable to accept that each polarity already exists within each of us, such is the nature of paradox. We each are made of light, yes, and love, but we are equal parts darkness too. Balance is the holy of holies. It is both what maintains equilibrium but also equilibrium itself. It is maintained at the higher densities, those realms which create the realities of the lower densities. Densities like ours. Third density.
As we are 3D, we are on the receiving end of the higher densities’ creative machinations. That is not to say that we do not have free will, just that balance must be maintained, which means there will be an equal expression of both light and dark in the physical realms – which is the result of universal creativity played out. How we interact with each one is up to us. Darkness needn’t be as extreme as famine and poverty, just as light needn’t be as extreme as those who would give of themselves until there is nothing left. The dance between the two is as complex and beautiful as we are, as is the universe, and so, both dark and light are each expressions of love – that which makes us and connects us and of which we are made – they’re just different expressions of love.
Because yes, darkness, being of Source – the Creator of all things, is therefore also an expression of love, just as much as light. Love being what made you and the stuff of which you’re made, contains both light and dark, which explains the complex and beautiful nature of existence itself. Look around you; this world is an expression of both light and dark. From moment to moment you might feel light and dark. It’s just very hard for human beings to move from light to dark and dark to light – again because of our physicality, which also causes us to crave one or the other, depending on what we’re used to. Most people want to live in the light, and yet repel the light because they continue to live in darkness of their own choosing. Many human beings have forgotten that the darkness is a gift, a tool, both the struggle and the gift; it is that which enables transformation to occur. And so it is that the most powerful beings are those who live consciously, who walk in shades of grey, in the knowledge that they are powerful creators with the capacity for both light and dark at any given second. That something offered in love and light may result in something of love and dark, that we only witness a small perspective at any one time, and so the light serves the dark just as the dark serves the light.
How does the light serve the dark? Consider the nature of life itself, the life which grows in the darkness of the womb. Our sun who nurtures the seeds growing in darkness. Any action taken with either the best or worst of intentions which may result in consequences beyond any knowing. As beings of light we leave traces of ourselves wherever we go throughout all of our incarnations, and these traces come back to us, this is karma, so that if you left light it will come back as light, and if you left dark, it will come back as dark. But we needn’t ever be scared of the dark, because in the dark is where we transform. The darker your traces, the greater your capacity for transformation, which is truly the heart of today’s transmission.
Darkness is both the struggle, and the gift, for it is in darkness where transformation happens. The light is the result of that transformation. It is a cycle. An endless cycle. Life-death-life. Light-dark-light. Darkness is a different expression of love, so what does it feel like? It feels like pain. Like sadness. Like spite. It looks like conflict and anger and jealousy. How can this be an expression of love? Because everything in the universe is of Source, which is love itself, and contained within love itself is the intention for growth. For change. Light is only light because of the darkness, and for change to occur, there must be that which the light comes up against. Darkness is the catalyst for change itself, and it’s infinitely loving because without it, the light wouldn’t shine as bright. The light would fade away. Thanks to darkness, the light grows and expands, shifting and turning and moving into new places where it wouldn’t have gone unless provoked. A universe of endless light and no darkness isn’t a universe at all. It is a dead thing, a no-thing. Non-existence. At the human being level, we experience this as the comfort zone, the place of stagnation.
Before Source took breath, and what do I mean by breath, but that the no-thing became aware of itself and noticed itself for the first time, it knew that there would be expansion but in order for expansion to occur there would have to be chaos and calm both.
This is why everything is perfect, even when everything ‘feels’ so wrong. Why those who have become enlightened say they would not change a thing about the nature of the universe and our reality, because everything is playing out exactly as it needs to in order to serve that highest good – which is such a limiting term for what I really mean, which is to say: in service of the highest purpose of Creation, which is transformation itself. A thing that has ceased to transform has ceased to live, and the same is as true for human beings as it is for our universe. Our universe is undying. It is eternal, just as you are eternal, and therefore constantly transforming. You, eternal, multi-dimensional being, are having a dream – which is your life – in a different place.
But if darkness is the place of transformation and thus transformation itself, why then does our experience of darkness in this realm arrest our personal transformation?
It does so because human beings are, as I’ve said, physical beings who find it difficult to move from darkness into light, and from light into darkness. We are not conditioned to see the darkness for what it is, which is a catalyst for our growth and thus something to be honoured no matter what. We tend to focus on the darkness alone and either run from it or curse it, demonize it, hide from it, fear it, and yet the whole time we would rid ourselves of it, by making it our focus we keep returning to it again and again and again. You see this play out at the individual level, but also the collective. It’s the reason why history repeats itself.
Now, whether the darkness you experience is because of circumstance – something beyond your control – or if you have come face-to-face with the darkness within you, or both, there is much treasure to be found. But here we’ve come to the place where we fear to tread, that place where we shake hands with the devil. Take a deep breath. The devil you fear is that which is already within you, but which you cannot bring yourself to look at. Look at it. See how your darkness has lit a fire within, and fire of course, elemental to transformation.
Hell is to be avoided because flames are punishment, no? No. It is in the flames where we transform out of the darkness and into the light. Hell then, is where we become angels. It is as essential to our creation and re-creation, to our life-death-life cycles as heaven. To shake hands with the devil is to make peace with the darkness both within and without, to realize that you have a choice about the extent to which and how you choose to express it, just as you have a choice about the extent to which and how you choose to express your light. Each one of us is making those choices every single day, individually and collectively.
War. Peace. Famine. Feast. Greed. Altruism. Love. Hate. When we find ourselves in these extremes – whether individually or collectively – it is because we have forgotten to accept that all aspects of these polarities live inside of us. We are conditioned to be ashamed of our darkness, and this is what creates monsters within. If you are able to practice the ART of forgiveness with your own darkness, no matter what it looks like, you will be able to live in harmony, to find the balance you crave and yet cannot name, and walk in equilibrium on this Earth. You will exist in the place beyond karma while incarnated, which is something that only the Master Teachers were able to do. Loving the darkness and the light within, and choosing to express them in ways that honour yourself and others, is the Middle Way, the path of least resistance – not least effort. It has been the purpose of meditation and other practices to create the conditions for acceptance of these universal truths which may not be knowable by some individuals depending on where they are in their karmic and soul’s journey.
For the hardest thing for a human heart to accept is that there is a reason for everything. That even the horrors of this life are meant. Everything is part of the infinite puzzle, yet it can be said that some pieces are much more beautiful than others. Even as I speak these words, my humanity finds it hard to accept, but I’m trying, that the darkness both within me and external to me is and was meant to be, and the point of it all is infinitely loving if not always…comfortable. Do I enjoy the pain and sorrow of loss? No, but it comes in amounts equal to the love and joy felt for that who was lost. Which means, that pain, sorrow, and loss are one side of the same coin as love and joy. Loss is truly transformative, not just for the person who has left their body, but for those who remain. Why? It's because we don’t just say goodbye to the person, we say goodbye to the version of ourselves who existed in the mind of that person. You say goodbye to a piece of yourself in the process.
Holding space for the paradox of this universe and existence is the realization that love and joy and pain and sorrow, light and darkness, it is all the same. That the harmony of opposites means that everything is perfect. That you cannot have one without the other, because each one provides the contrast necessary to truly express it’s opposite.
Is it any wonder our lives are so complicated?
